I think man is inherently bent towards evil. We bitch and complain about the corruption and malice in the world, when we are no different. It is a conscious act of the will and the mind to be good.
I am not a philosopher or anything like that-I am just another human with an opinion. And at the end of the day, I guess that is all I have.
I have tried to be a selfless person; giving of my time, mind and body to others. Jesus taught that to be first, you must last. But when does being “last” transition from being a leader to being taken advantage of?
Yesterday, I got woke up, in regular fashion, of being yelled at and having my wife kick the bed. A wonderful way to start out your morning, huh? I have been woke up so many times this way, it even surprises me that I still get pissed.
One thing led to another, and soon, it was a verbal slug-fest! But out of all of this, one thing still remains with me: I was told that I am a selfish person. Why? Because I buy myself things when I get paid. It’s never anything costly or huge, just little things-like a shirt, boxer shorts, ten-dollar headphones.
But because I reward myself with something small when I get paid, I am selfish. And the “ugly ass” green dress I bought her the other day doesn’t suffice. Hearing that, my heart broke.
I have tried to be the best man I can be, the best husband, father, brother, son-you name it. And I feel like I have failed. Miserably.
It’s true, we cannot rely on others to make us happy, however, there are external forces that dictate our moods. The next time you put someone down, watch their mannerisms; you can practically see their self-esteem dwindle down to nothing. All day today, I have put myself down. Putting yourself down is a dirty job, but hey, someone has to do it.
Wherever you are, I hope you have a wonderful day.